Life Life Life

Hm... I leave for Peru in about a week and a half!

Good gravy I am nervous. But I'm also very excited. It will be the best of times and the worst of times. I know everyone says that, but I like it anyway.

Life is just so wonderful right now. =]

Lately, I have really come to know myself and I've learned more about who I am. It is very interesting and fun and stuff. I know I will for sure learn soooo much about myself in these next two years.

I found a list of 50 Things that I want to do before I die. I thought I'd post some of them here, just for fun. Sometimes, when you are a man, you wear stretchy pants. It's for fun.

-Put the jelly filling in a jelly-filled donut.
-Get married in the Temple
-Run on the Great Wall of China
-Serve an honorable mission
-Live to be 103 years old
-Never lose sight of the importance of my family
-Live at the beach
-Snorkle in Hawaii
-Go to New Zealand and see the Hakka
-Run a 100 mile race
-Sky dive
-Hear a lion roar
-Publish a short story
-Each legit Chinese food in China
-Inspire someone to change for the better
-Volunteer for Red Cross or other humanitarian aid
-Teach English in a foriegn country
-Go to an opera
-Stick my whole fist in my mouth
-Be in a big play
-Crowd surf
-Be on national television
-Kayak in Alaska
-Be a Khols model =P hehe I could even do this as an old guy.
-Put a note in a bottle and throw it into the ocean
-Do a voice over in a Disney cartoon


Yep, those are some of the random things I want to do =]

What do YOU want to do?
Please comment and share with me
=P

BLAH BLAH BLHA

tons has been happening, and i am just toooooo lazy to write about it all

=P

"The Past" (From My Other Blog on 3-12-10)

the past is something that makes me ache. there are great times that i long to experience again, and horrible times that i wish to forever forget. friends made, laughs sounded, smiles cracked. those were the good days. we never imagined the future to come so quickly, never saw it coming until it hit us. we never could grasp the feelings of growing up and moving on. leaving everything behind to only be kept safe in our memories and pictures. how is it that we were prepared for this, but it still comes with such shock. growing up is hard because there are times and moments that make you who you are. but then they are gone so suddenly that you seem to have slept through the good parts. there are certain things that will remain frozen in my mind. captured for me to now and again look back to. smiles, food, places, hands, eyes, graduation day, the miles we ran together. those are the things that matter. the grades have been forgotten, the lectures may as well have been on mute. lunch time, meet days, dances. those are the building blocks for memories. hugs. friendship. growing up is harder than anyone has ever said it would be.

but i must remember that i am still growing up. only now, I'm in a new setting. with new friends to smile with, new memories to create, new food to eat. everyday has the potential to be a memorable day. to be the best day. one day, i will look back on the here and now, and i will wish that i could return to what is going on right now. i should make every day count. when i will look back, i will know that i did not waste time or take the opportunities i have for granted. live and love and learn. make today the best day, and tomorrow even better.

these words might sound fake, corny, exaggerated and exploding with dramatic emotion. all i am trying to do is not forget the past, and make a better future. i miss my friends, i miss my high school days. where everything was much easier and less scary. i need to be strong. life is not the same. this is the truth, these words are for real. I'm scared of the future. things just get overwhelming sometimes. this is when i need to step back, and take a deep breath. chill out, and stop worrying. everything is going to be ok. it actually will be hard, but it will be great at the same time. i can do this. breathe and then conquer. keep moving forward and be on your best behavior. (this is me talking to myself, and reassuring my self.) its good stuff.


i am my own person, and i am unconventional. i just do things my way. others can only make me feel inferior or unimportant if i let them. so i sure as heck will stand up and fight for who i am. i will not disintegrate and become nothing or nobody. no sir. not me. i am not going anywhere and you cannot make me feel insecure or defeated. i have the power to control how i feel. i know Jesus loves me, i know my mother loves me. i am a son of God. that is about all that i need. friends and other family members love me too. i am so blessed to have all of these wonderful people in my life. why should i feel so small. i am loved. i am loved. and o how glorious it feels.

Look Me in the Eyes

The other day, I ran some errands for my mother (a frequent activity of mine). I was all over the place but my last stop was our local Wal Mart. (Which I like it for various reasons =] )

When I was checking out, the lady at the cash register asked the usual, "How are you doing today?" Normally I would never really look at the person as I respond. This time, however, I thought to try to look her in the eyes as I responded. So I did. She was looking directly into my eyes.

How often do we look people straight in the eyes? It is sort of a personal thing, but we can do it with anyone. I think it shows confidence, a little bit of trust, and a hint of...magic, I guess.

All I am trying to say is that I need to look people in the eyes more often. It is something great.

Thunder Clouds in the Morning

Woke up to a grey sky. Windy and a bit of rain and lightning. Smells good, the storm that's coming. It's just a small one.





(Picture's kind of blurry because I took it with my phone)

Old Writing #5 "Why Even Bother To Rhyme?"

Yesterday was a happy day,

Today I am sad.

Why do emotions flow so freely?

How can I feel yellow one moment,

and the next one grey?

Nothing to Report

I am reporting that there is nothing to report.

So does that mean that there really is something to report? Because if you report that there is nothing to report, you are still reporting. And the "nothing" becomes the "something" you reported about.

???

Anywho.


I really wanted to write something today. A story.

HOWEVER

My brain is fried from watching too much TV. I would guess *counts out on fingers* probably 3 or 4 or 5 hours. GAAAH!

Oh well, I'm going to write anyway.
I'll post it up when I'm done. (Which could be never).

Until next time.



Oh. I just remembered something very sad that happened today. One of my dearest friends lost her mother to breast cancer. Please, take time to appreciate your own mother. And pray for those who need comfort.

I'm sorry to end on such a grey note. But life is not always kind.